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i'm going to get sidetracked about 18 times doing this, it's going to be long. yesterday around 3:30 brooke and i left for bamboozle roadshow. we got there around 4:10 and got right online. we were right by the buses and trailers. jcook passed at one point and i started to cry, i missed him so much. we met up with marissa, tracy, karina, sam, shaunna, kiddy and laur. the doors opened at six so we went in, got our merch and went outside by the buses. the few times i would see jontahan i teared up. i will not leave without talking to him. we stayed outside for mercy mercedes and nevershoutnever. i told gunz he has to do me a big favor and find cook for me and he said he'll try. after about a half hour we went inside for the cab, but our spots sucked and nobody wanted to stay in the crowd so we went back outside until forever the sickest kids came on. our spots sucked for that too and i didn't have as much fun as i planned, but it's okay because i saw ftsk and i missed them like crazy. when they ended i went to find gunz. he asked me if i met jonathan yet and i said no, i was about to cry. so he texted cook and said " can you come meet one of my listeners real quick?" but he didn't answer. so gunz told me to go by the buses in 15 minutes because they'd most likely be there. so i did. i was standing right in front of the bus and jonathan comes out. he looks at me, pats me on the back and then got mobbed my a group of obnoxious girls. it took him about 2 minutes before he decided to back in the bus. i was so upset, and so close. after that happened laura and cat came over screaming my name, so i ran over to them and they took me to gunz because they told him how badly i needed to see jonathan. he grabbed my hand and we ran through everyone in the crowd around the bus. "IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK, WE'RE NOT HOOKING UP" aha. we got up to the front by the security guards and gunz told them we had to get on the bus and i have to do a "photo shoot". so now we're fricken walking onto ftsk's bus. i had no idea what to do, i was shaking like never before. gunz opens the curtain and says hi to jonathan, kyle, marc, kent, joe clay and 3 people idk, then i come along behind him. completely speechless. he introduced everyone to me and they all said haaaay. cook asked if i like the gunz show, obvs i do. then gunz told jonathan that i've been waiting for this for so long. so i gave him his bracelet and he gave me a huge hug, then told me to sit down and watch some basketball. so i sat down next to him and we all watched basketball and just talked. i asked jonathan if i can sign his hoodie and he said "yes .... put your number." o hullo, i'm dying right now. hes so qt, i can't. whoever was playing basketball won and they all were screaming and going crazy. after like 10 minutes they decided they want to go outside and take pictures with everyone. so i asked jonathan for a quick picture -LEAVING SOMETHING IMPORTANT OUT- so we took a picture and hugged. then i said bye to everyone and walked towards the door with gunz. he's to busy yelling ballinn outside the door to everyone so i'm just standing there waiting. then jonathan comes and we gave each other another huge hug and i look over through the window and i see kiddy and laur staring, practically dying about the fact that i'm on the bus hugging jonathan samuel cook. we walked off the bus and went out through the back because the amount of crazy girls standing right by the door was insane. i heard laura and cat calling my name so i ran to them, hugged them, and burst into tears. i had to let it all out, i was just on the bus with forever the sickest kids and sitting right next to jonathan. i thought i was going to faint. we hung out with gunz for like 20 more minutes. i really couldn't thank him enough. everyone was leaving, i didn't get home till 12 and i wasn't asleep for another hour and a half after that. i've been smiling like crazy since this happened. tomorrow is bamboozle. which means, FTSK AND THE CAB AGAIN, COBRA STARSHIP, DANGER RADIO AND FALL OUT BOY. i'm going crazy, idk what i'm wearing. awesome. dnw rain. kiddy, laura and gunz, thank you for everything you did, it means the world to me and i don't know how to repay you for that. jonathan cook, caleb turman, kyle burns, austin bello, marc stewart and kent garrison, thank you for an amazing night, i love you.