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what a sucky day. i came home to hearing that i lost the contest with my dad. there goes 100$ i've been waiting for. i don't think i'm going to stop. i think i'm going to make it tougher for myself and set a goal. i went this far what could a little more hurt? i know i can do it. changing topic, seventeen days left. i need this more than anything. it's been over 180 days since i've been to a show. really? i didn't think that was even possible. tomorrow is april. this is going to be one of the best months of the year and it's finallly here, thank you. bye (:

63

i had a good day minus the fact my eyes were non stop tearing because i'm so damn tired. the rest of my night is just trying to keep up with this contest i've been doing with my dad. it ends tomorrow. all i need is to loose one more pound and i get 100 dollars. i just want to win, please. that's all for today, bye(:

62

i woke up at 12:30, what a waste of a day. i've done nothing since then but took a shower. my sundays are so interesting, let me tell you. hopefully this week goes fast. spring break is only 5 days away and i need it... goodbye (:

61

last night kiddy, laur, tracy and i went to the movies. haunting in ct was actually really good. after that we wondered around and went to target for candy. when we went back to kiddys we sat in her kitchen talking about shows and it was just great. we went to bed kinda early, i sleep to much, boooo. i came home around 1:30 and took a shower. i don't know what to wear today, i'm going to my aunts soonish for dinner with the family, fun! o and i just bought my danger radio ticket and i'm going insane, so excited. alright, bye (:

60

on my day off from school i did absolutely nothing, fun. my road show ticket came yesterday, hfs i can't wait any longer. i'm in the process of getting ready to go see laur, kiddy and tracy. finally. we're seeing the haunting in ct tonight. goodbye (:

59

rainy days make me want to stay home and sleep. another great day, love these. after school i went to jill's for like 3 hours and got home about an hour ago. i think i'm going to watch movies all night and just relax. i don't even know why we are off school tomorrow but i get to finally see my best friends. you're starting to mean everything to me again and i'm loving it. bye (:

58

when i think about you, i get a huge smile on my face. thank you. another good day today and honestly i have no idea why. when i got home from school jill texted me and told me my new ftsk shirt came in! since it was gorgeous outside, i walked halfway and picked it up. its so qt i love it. when i came home i passed out. i really need to stop sleeping, whatever. hm didn't realize how late it was already. i hope everyone had a good day too. goodbye (:

57

ahh good mood today, i love it. i went to jills house after schoool to be dumb and make funny videos. you should watch them (go on youtube and search jillyalwaysknows) they'll be there. enjoy yourself, i love life today. goodbye(:

56

today was a goood day. after school i went to jill's house and make stupid videos on her new webcam. then we walked over to mia's house for our spanish project.... funniest project i think i'll ever do in my life. if anyone knows someone that needs a babysitter or something lemme know. i need 400 dollars to pay for jonas tickets by july, thank you, goodbye (:

55

i reaaaally hate sundays. i miss my best friends. that's all. bye (:

54

just a warning, this is going to be long. yesterday around four ish lia and melissa picked me up and we went to the hotel for jills sweet sixteen. when we got to the hotel jill was just starting to get her hair done by her cousin, kassandra. (she's hilarious) after about an hour we all got into our dresses, fixed our hair, you know.. the good stuff. jill went out to the gazebo with her family for pictures while lia, melissa and i went into the party room, where we met adam. adam is the dj. he's the cutest person i've ever seen in my life. when jill came out, she looked like cinderella.... gorgeous. the photographer or "bus driver" was really obnoxious with taking pictures, i was going to throw his camera on the floor... anyway we hardly ate anything, idk why. jills candles we're so cute, i loved them. lia and i both danced with adam. idek what we we're doing but it was adorable. about an hour into the party ending we brought jill back into her room and helped her change into her second dress. her shoes took forever to put on, bahaha. jill, lia, melissa and i walked back in to lala land. showing off our converse because we're just that awesome. LOL. as we were gone they played guilty pleasure, so we made them play it again and did the dance standing on the speakers, along with our interesting untouched dance. now the party was over and everyone was leaving. we talked to adam and chris for about a half our about how they "met the jonas brothers." after all the hugs and goodbyes we went back into jills room, starving. kassandra and eddie took us to applebees. why was it so crowded at like 12:30 ? who knows. we got picked up and squished in 5 people in the back of a hummer. we got to the hotel at like 1:45 . and we went to bed about 45 minutes later. woke up at 10 this morning, got breakfast and packed up our stuff. my dad picked us up and dropped everyone back off at jills while i went home to shower. i passed out for about an hour and now i'm in the process of getting ready so i can go to the mall with jill and get my christmas present, LOL, just a little late. that was the best sweet sixteen i've been to so far, hands down. i love my best firends. wow i wrote a lot, goodbye (:

53

came home early from school, jills sweet sixteen tonight. bye (:

52

aslghs;ghs hot. i need to stop sleeping and actually study for the five tests' that i have tomorrow, but i think i'm going to watch the real world instead because i care about that so much more. still don't feel good. you suck and i hate you. goodbye (:

51

i'd love to know why all the sudden i can't stay awake anymore. i was planning on coming home from school and going on a walk because it's so nice out, but instead i passed out. i just got off the phone with jill. she's so stressed for her party i find it hilarious. i still need to finish her abnormally large card. i don't feel good at all. i want to know why you try to be like me. it's been bothering me so much. you're a different person and you need to stop doing the things i do. just be yourself... everything sucks. bye (:

50

slghsglkshkgl i don't want to write today.... happy birthday jill. bye (:

49

to start off, i'm very tired. i need just a full week where i can sleep in, and i don't want to wait 3 more weeks for that. i've realized that all of the old feelings are coming back harder then before and honestly, i'm scared. i don't want anything to end up how it did. sometimes i wish all the feelings we're gone, but i don't think they're ever going to disappear. i need to see past that brick wall, because it's going to stop me from so many things coming and i can't take it. i think i'm going to bed really early tonight. goodbye (:

48

last night was alright, could've been better. you need to just let them do what they want and not worry so much, please. i got no sleep and i feel like i have an ear infection. i think i'm gunna just lay down and watch movies alllll day. i need april to come faster. okay bye (:

47

i love my best friends, a lot. the end. bye (:

46

today has been really good. school went by fast and it's friday. finally, this week was going so slow. i'm in the process of getting ready for alyssa's sweet sixteen with my best friend, kidddy! i hope it's fun! after the party kiddy's sleeping over, yay. i needa go finish up! bye (:

45

britney spears and the pussycat dolls was great, i wannna go back. i got four hours of sleep. tomorrow's friday, thank god. i'm so tired and i'm going to pass out soon, bye (:

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britney spears and the pussycat dolls at nassau coliseum, bye (:

43

school was boring today, i really hate school. amanda picked me up after and we went to the outlets, it was freezing. maybe i should take a hoodie with me when its freeeezing outside..... britney spears and pcd tomorrow. i'm actually getting excited. i dun feel goooood AND AW KIDDDY YAYYAY<3 ok bye (:

42

i hate rainy mondays, so much. today went by fast bcuz of the like 3 period field trip. i should be studying for bio but i'm so tired and want to go to bed. i hate daylight savings. goodbye (:

41

a year ago today was probably one of the best show's i've ever been to. cobra, the cab and wtk at the crazy donkey. though it was the worst hair day of my life. the show itself was great. i haven't been to a show in 149 days. holy crapppp. i need april right now. today was really boring, i worked on my spanish project a good half of the day. i'm still waiting to go to cvs so i can get oak tag for it, awsome. dnw school this week, blah. okay i'm done, bye (:

40

oh hi. last night at kiddys house was fun. today tracy, kiddy and i went to the mall. laurlaur couldn't come because she had to go to brooklyn to seee her cousins. we walked around the mall for like 5 hours, boring. lmfao. purple hat<333 dwdw. there were SO many scene kids at the mall, we we're basically dying. i jus got home like a half hour ago and i'm dizzy and feel like i'm going to faint. FUN. i love my best friends, bye (:

39

aw good day. making this quick. today went by reallly fast. now i gotta get ready then i'm sleeping at kidddys with laur and trac. i haven't seen them in like two weeks. ok bye (:

38

i'm in a great mood, i love it. this morning i counted 56 days till ftsk and the cab and 58 days till bamboozle. i can't wait for that week because i know it will be the best week of my life, so excited. today was a bad hair day for me, jsyk. tomorrow's friday and i get to see my my best franz who i haven't seen in like two weeks, i can't. there's nothing really to talk about so goodbye (:

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it's already wednesday, i love this week. everything is so much better when it goes fast. today was pretty good. though i really don't remember anything that happened, i'm pretty tired... i'm seeing britney spears and the pussycat dolls in a week from today, LOL~ i'm actually excited for that. my week days aren't interesting, what so ever. i neeed new nail polish, badly ... okay bye (:

36

haaaaay. i wish we had another snow day today, though it didn't snow again. even a 2 hour delay would've been nice. the day went by fast so that was good. i came home and did nothing, like usual. i hate being home after school because there's nothing to do. i'm exhausted and i'm gunna pass out sooon. bye (:

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last night we got the call that we have a snow day today.there's a good foot of snow, i love it. i want to go make a snowman but i'm freezing. dnw to go to school tomorrow. i'm gunna go lay down and watch a movie. (kiddy drew that picture of me and gabe, LOL) bye (:

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happy march! i'm soooo tired. yesterday around 2 emily and sarah picked me up! then we went to the city. i saw amanda and derek in penn station, bahaha. we walked to the nike store first and saw a drag queen on our way there. then we walked to the stardust diner. it was amazing, the waiters/waitresses sing to everyone. jonathan was so so so qt. after that we went and saw the little mermaid. i loved every second of it minus the lady sitting in front of me, i wanted to throw something at her. aw flounder<33. we went to juniors for desert after the show. i've never seen such a big cheesecake in my entire life, lmfao. i didn't get home till about 12:50 and then i passed out. the city was so much fun and i want to see that show again. its already four and it feels like i just woke up, i have nothing to do. i hope we get a lot of snow tonight! haha okay bye (: