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mmmm today wus emily and sarahs supirse party! laura and i got to christines early with dan and bryan to help set up den around 4 everyone started coming, emily and sah at 5. nobody said suprise or jumped out cause dey all suck, but who cares it was fun. michelle, bodie, meh, simon, chip, and some people i dont know their names were there, they're cool. mehmehmeh i love my favorite twins, bye (:

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i went to the beach with my best friend today, i love her. bye (:

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OH, i totally forgot about this. uh i went to sammys with lauraaaah and den we went to panera and friendlys for ice cream with gina and chrissy. that was yummy. hmmm den sammy and i went back to ginas fer a wittle. yah! bye (:

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my days just keep getting more boring, i dont know why. you out of all people, why the hell would you ever say that to me? do you think it's not going to hurt? because it really does. whatever ugh. on the other hand, you. you've made me never want to borrow something from someone again. who does that? reallllllllly? especially when you see how happy someone gets when you give something to them and then just take it back. i'm not having a good day. all i've done was go in the pool and then to amandas softball game. i need to get new friends. bye (:

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laur came over today! after i went to red mango (mmmm) with amanda and matt we picked her up! came here and went swimming then to target and got some dinnah, my life has been so boring latley. i missss ftsk a lot and they should come to ny and see me soon. i need to go on an adventure. bye (:

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one of my favorite shirts is ruined and i'm saddd (wearing it below). i really miss my best friend and i think it's about time for her to come home, really. most likely we would've hung out today but since she's busy in france..... i sat home allll day doing nothing. big thunderstorm coming? says everyone but it's not even raining yet. lulz. bye (:

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laur, emily and sarah came over today! we went in the pool till we froze the watched a movie and got wendys. i love them. finalllly got my phones switched, there for i don't have my locked tweets from cookie anymore ): booooo. i found tickets t osold out cobra at the donkey, win! i'm going to see the orphan with val and her friend rachel soon, pumped. bye (:

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i feel like i'm getting sick, i knew this would happen after last night. my new phone finally came in the mail, thank god. this one is going to completely die on me any day now. i gotta clean all day and den hit up verizon! i miss kiddy a wot, bye (:

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everything is honestly better in the monsoon rain. amanda and i got to jones beach around 3, it was raining so hard and everyone was in ponchos and had umbrellas, unlike us who were in hoodies and shorts. they opened the gates around 4:15 but we still had to wait another hour till the let us go to the stage. we were SOAKED. it looked like everyone just took a shower and there is still 5 hours left. nevershoutnever came on and lulz i can't even deal with him. that fricken voice. if i heard him say "giddy" one more time someone would have died, he sucks. but sam made everything fricken hilarious so i lived. "THA THE BUTCHER, THA THE THA BUTCHER" tai was up next, the line up changed and everyone did like 4 songs less than they did the last show but i guess cause the rain? they plaeld summer hair, slow down, neighbors, we've got a big mess, about a girl and almost here. aw dw. the veronicas wore like garbage bags on stage, i guess that's smart so they don't get wet. it was like january cold outside.for gym class amanda and i went into the bathroom to dry my phone off since it was broken, again. but we caught the last 2 songs. we ended up getting barricade on pauls side for blg. mmmmm! they played love drunk, hero heroine, dance hall drug, heels over head, heart heart heartbreak, up against the wall, five minutes to midnight, thunder and the great escape. martin kept thanking everyone for staying out in the rain and he said "at the end of the show i'm gunna come down and meet every single one of you" and at the end, he said " and i wasn't kidding" so he jumped down and met everyone in the middle. while we were waiting we saw bryan, so we went by him for a little while, took pictures and he gave me a guitar pic, aw. martin was making his way around so we went back and he secuirty was yelling at him tellling him he had to go but he said to them "no, you tell them i have to leave." honestly, i was dying. he was being so cute about trying to stay and meet everyone and i died over the fact that he argued to stay. but it didn't work out to well. so he went down the barricade and hugged every single person he could. he hugged me really tight, said "thank you SO much", and we had eye sex. though i'm gunna get sick for staying outside in the cold and rain for 8 hours, it was totally worth it in the end, bye (:

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back from jersey.with my best friends that i haven't seen in a month tonight. tai and blg again tomorrow! bye (:

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emily, sah and i woke up at like 9...... killer. it was pooooooring so we waited till like 12:30 then went to 6 flags. first ride wus scream machine...... we sat down and looked to our left and tai was standing right there. i died. when we got off we waited at the end of the line and sisky, carden and beckett came over and we took a picture! aw i can't. we went on rides for awhile, watched tai do dare devil lulz. we missed nevershoutnever.... THANK GOD. ze veronicas weren't that good buh whatever. oh tai, i've missed them. they played summer hair, slow down, neighbors, the phrase that pays, his girl friday, we've got a big mess and about agirl. more old songs then new<3 love it. during gym class we went on more rides, saw tai on bizzaaaaaro, dw. we went back to the crowd for boys like girls. first time seeing them and it was great. i can't wait for thursday. bye (:

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wooooh, it's really early. i needa finish up packing then emily and sarah are picking me up. jersey shore tonight! staying der till wedensday. my favorite twinssss. I MISS KIDDY. bye (:

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mmmm i went to the beach today with val and amanda. got really sunburnt under my butt. what a great place, right? now i can't sit. owellz. i went to verizon for my broken crappy phone and they're gunna send a new on tuesday, thank god. i'm getting pumped for this week. spending it with the kapps in jers. do want all the time. i need aloe, bye (:

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fire island with val, amanda, jim and karen (lolololol) was eventful. i love my family so much, bye (:

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didn't sleep at all last night, this is the sun rising at 5:15 am. watched it with my best friends. it was kiddys last day so i spent it with her. got our nails done and i helped her pack, which i didn't mind. i dun want her to leave but i know she's gunna have a lot of fun and i'll see her in august! i'm exhausted and i need sleep, bye (:

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mmmmmmmmmm i went to sammys with kea and laura todayz, then went to kiddys for a wittle and watched her pack. wow ): i'm gunna miss chu! bye (:

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these two mean more to me than you'd ever know. i woke up at fricken 2:30, really? obvs i'm still on california time. i got ready and went to dakiddys house with dalaur! aw i love my best friends, i really do. we ate...... a lot, listened to music with the lights off like usual, and ate some more. kiddy started to pack, three weeks without her will suck. o i love mama ahhhhhhhhhhhh "YOUR PHONE IS PURRING" omg i can't. i love everyone. bye (:

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what a long day. almost every second of that trip was worth it. i'd do ANYTHING to move there, absolutely anything. there were some bumps but it all evened out in the end. i hate saying bye, especially to your best friend who you're not going to see for a whole year, it just sucks. our flight and everything was on time and we arrived back in new york around 7. then went out to dinner, where i saw dakiddy! i missed her so much, and i really don't want her to leave, at all. she's nice enuff to ditch her family and come eat dinner with mine. good friend. i had a greatttttttt ten days and i'm gunna miss it. hopefully i can go back to california sometime sooner than a year. bye (:

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well this is it, the last full in day in california. it was the slowest but fastest ten days of my life. going to the beach everyday, getting really burnt, meeting new people -rant begins- oh, about that. why go out of your way to do something and then be a complete asshole anyway? you wasted your time and mine. i hope you didn't pick your friends how you are because it'd be nice to at least know one of you guys aren't an asshole. -rant ends- we got in-n-out for lunch today, fries and a shake of course. then we packed and got ready for downtown disney! we walked around there for a while then went to p.f chang's for dinner, yummy. as we were leaving we caught the end of some disney fireworks, so qt. iz always fun to blast music with the top down.... on your last day in fact. booo i don't want to go home to sucky new york people but i have no choice. bye (:

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today was one of the laziest days of my life. minus walking 2 miles to starbucks and back, which we dreaded completely but did it anyway ... i layed around all day. in pain of course. alexa and i went swimming for a little bit then lillian came home and we went out to dinner, it was yummmmmy. kiddy mentioned that she's leaving soon and i'm getting sad, wtf am i gunna do without her for 3 weeks? really? wth. t0day wus b0ring, bye (:

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staying out of the sun is probably what's best after today. i haven't felt like this since april. wha da fug!? i dun remember what i did today..... oh yah! got up early because some people enjoy talking REALLY LOUD. i rolled out of bed and got ready then alexa, amanda and i walked down to the beach. it was still early so we got a nice spot. awexa and i went to get ice cream / snow cones and i saw dem arizona keedz skatin~. aftah eating da yummy food we went in the wata and got crazy burned, srslykillah. it was time to check out of ze hotel sho we did, then got fake tattoos and walked main street. so tired and painful, so we came back to the hotel and went swimming, tho we already checked out. it felt good. i didn't say bye to the az kids, whatever. when i got back to the house i showered.... so painful i cant even tell you. totally not sleeping tonight. no way in hellllll. bye (:

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everyone's asleep and i'm sitting outside writing. sucks when you're never tired, huh? today was long but fun. we got up earrrrrrly but didn't even leave till about 2. we went to our hotel in huntinington beach, staying one night at ze hilton waterfront, mmm. that beach is beautiful and my new favorite place. we went to the beach and got tan for an hour then came back and got ready and hit up main street~ got jamba and walked the pier (the screen in hollister iz on zat pier and the hotel is da one we stayed at mmm.) it was sooooo cold on the pier so we came back and went in the jacuzzi, nice. they feel so good but jus way to h0t. after sweating balls we went back to the room and ordered pizza, den the neighborhood lost the power cause some asshole hit a generator sho we wondered outside and got cool glow sticks. in the mean time we saw some kids that were on our floor and when we went back up to the rooms we we're on our balcony's waving glow sticks at each other and trying to talk tho it was 10 at night and people were sleeping. amanda, alexa and jas went downstairs so on my way to go get them i knocked on the kids door and they came out and we just talked for a little. brett, matt and dylan, they're from arizona. they seemed pretty nice. (haaaaaa :|) we exchanged numbers and i was texting them allll night till i fell asleep, long day and i'm tan. bye (:

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mmmmm today was gewd. jonafffan tweeted me back, zat kinda stuff always makes my day. (fyi, every time i say we, it's most likely amanda lillian and i) we picked alexa up from summer school at 1, then went to get sum lunch! and headed for laguna beach. dfw that place, it's great. amanda got stung by a LAGUNABEEEEEE lmfao. we laied in ze sun fer a while and shopped. after 4 hours we went and got dinnner then went back to the house to go swimming! alexa and i showered, then we all went and picked up simon, then went to cherry on top. jeeze i ate a lot there. c0bra was on the radio, again todayz. speaking of, so gabe was at tprov and nobody called me, boo ): !!! while watching superbad my phone broke, GREAT. bye (:

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happppppppy wednesday! my legs still hurt, sukkah. sometimes i wish i just got tan and not sun burnt. then again you never get everything you wish for. we got up at 8:30 today, haaaa. obvs did the usual, showered and did my hair. at 9:30 niko, amanda, lillian and i went to downtown LA where niko took pictures of graffiti for a while, that sheeeeetz pretty interesting i must say. we drove past rob dyrdek's business place. cool dude. after an hour we went to pinks and i got fries~ mmm. then we took a nice long walk on hollywood blvd. i spent over 50$ on franz, i love dem. one day i'm going to move to california, really. we stayed in hollywood till 2:30 then went to drop niko off at his dads. we didn't get to say bye before he left for europe, kinda sucks. alexa amanada and i went to some concert in the park. sucky old bands played but we walked around with simon and garrett. good exercise. we ended up leaving and we jus drove around for a while. -___- idk who i'm gunna text when i'm going to bed. aghfug. bye (:

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i'd like the sun to go away for a few days. reallly, it is necessary to get the weirdest burn lines ever? well anyway i got up early and showered, finally straightened my hair! i wore a really cute dresss today but idk why i'd wear in to newport beach? wuteva. that's where the horrible sunburn comes into play. just the back of my legs are burnt and then it stops cause my dress, wth! we stayed at the beach for 3 hours then got chick-fil-a for dinner. alexa amanada and i went to target to get np and uamde but they didn't have either, wow. we got pinkberry again! original with strawberries and fruity pebbles, delish. i walked through a fountain and got really wet, highlight of my day. my legs are on fire, bye (:

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2 years since fobz at the today show. woaaaaah. happy birfday alexa! we gotz up kinda late today, 10. alexa had summer school so we got ready then picked her up when it was over and went to get her birthday present. niccccce. we went to RA for lunch, first time i ever tried sushi, lulz. a few of alexas friends came with. i honestly think i have a stomach problem. i'm not hungry then when i eat i feel so sick. whatever. i got a qt shirt from forever 21. their clothes hate me but i love them. we dropped alexa off at her dads then went to pinkberry, pomegranate with strawberries and oreos. weird mix buh it was okiez. i actually missed home for once today, i don't understand how but i did. it wasn't such a great day, bye (:

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i hardly slept last night, idunnoz why but it really sucked. i got up at 6:55, showered and got ready then we went to melrose for the day while niko and alexa were in san deigo. we stayed there alllll day and i got hella burnt. i got a pair of sunglasses, bright green. mhmhmhm, dw. around 6 we left, we were gunna go to pinks for dinner buh it was crowded so we went to in-n-out. fries and a vanilla shake yum. i haven't been able to eat so much lately, kinda weird huh? everyone falls asleep so early besides niko, so i'll stay in his room and write till i go to bed, bye (:

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i'll write when i come home!

edit: allll the dates are gunna be messed up now buh i wrote everything down each day~

edit 2: ohai, tiz july fourth. i've been up forever. we got to the airport around 1, got lunch, said bye to jim and went through security. the flight was delayed a half hour but we got to nashville(lulz) at 5. two hour flight, not bad. we got on the plane to LAX after our lameover, which was 4 hours long...... killllah. i hate being on a squished plane for so long. we finally landed and went peeee, then got our luggage and met up with niko and alexa! we wanted to make fireworks so we got in the car and went to manhattan beach. we saw weeeeeeeman! ahaha. oh i 've never seen so many good looking kids in my life. i love that about california. we saw fireworks and got mama d's for dinner, so good. it was a good first day, and only about 6 hours in california so far but it's great.

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i'm stressed, i don't feel good, i haven't started packing and i leave tomorrow. i want my report card, i want itunes to stop being dumb, i want all my problems solved right now. i should be extremely happy that i'm going to california tomorrow, but it doesn't even feel like it. OH, YOU ARE SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON, WOW. bye (:

edit: my mood just changed drastically, look how much i've improved. wow i'm so proud of myself. -pats self on back- :D

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ooooh man, last night was great. i picked up tracy around 4 and we went to kiddys! left for shh. it happens tour around 5. i love driving to the city, blasting every ave and trs. so qt! we got there late but who cares, dnw phone calls from home or sparks the rescue. we walked in and kiddy got merch, and bought me a qt every ave dog tag(tyty!) and i got a cash cash jvanek bracelet! str was playing there last song while we found a good spot in the crowd. cash cash, wow i really cant. they make everything so exciting and jp, your voice makes me speechless. valencia was great, they're so qt! every avenue, dfw all the time. they played trading heartbeats, chasing the night, a story to tell your friends, think of you later, never knew me (new song, amazing), freak out, between you and i, days of the old, where were you and one more song as their encore. afterwards we met brendan, shane and george from valencia and jimmie, josh and dave of every ave! they're all amazing. and almost hitting dave with the car, ahahaha great. last show with kiddy in july, i think? sucks! i went to the mall for 5 hours today, wow hate life. i need to start packing considering the fact i leave in 2 days. i got jonathans name on the hat today. fricken adorable, he better love it! bye (:

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mmmmmmmmmm every avenue, cash cash and valencia tonight. good thing it's raining and i don't have moose so i have to straighten my hair. whutevaaa! so excited, gunna be great. aw 3 days! bye (: