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forever the sickest kids and the cab. holy crap. bye (:

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let's talk about last night. around 4 i went to kiddys house and waited as she finished up getting ready, then we headed off to ap. we hit some traffic on the way but we got there just in time. when we got out of the car and walked by the buses, family force 5 was just standing there talking to some girls, but they seemed busy so we walked in. arttm was already playing but we got to see about 4 songs or so. it was so qt, dw. when they ended kiddy and i got our merch and talked to eric and justin. then went to the back of the crowd for hit the lights and the maine. i've never seen so many obnoxious girls in my life. john o was smart and decides to take off his shirt and see if he can crowd surf from the stage to the back of the crowd. kinda funny he didn't even make it to like the fourth row. anyway, their set was amazing. for family force 5 we moved up a lot since half the venue left after the maine. after 3 songs, gunz called kiddy and said he was outside waiting so we left the crowd and gave him his ticket. mirror pictures with gunz, ahahaha o god. the rest of ff5 was great, their outfits were the qtest. as we were waiting for 3OH!3 the girl next to kiddy was fricken crazy. " 3 POTATO 3" i really can't. some people creep me out, her being one of them. 3OH!3 was a lot better live then i expected. they got a plack for selling 1,000,000 records, crazy. it was such a great show. we went outside and met nick, jared, loren and garrett, aw. then we just hung out with gunz for a while. around 11:45 we went to the pizza place and as we're on line, hit the lights walks in. awkward. i didn't get home till about 1 am. i'm so tired but it was totally worth it. i'm shaking of excitement for tomorrow. forever the sickest kids and the cab, i'm gunna go crazy. jonathan samuel cook and alex marshall omg gkhnsahg. okay bye (:

92

i lost my memory card and i'm going crazy. i have to find it. gettting ready quick. going to kiddy;s house. then ap tour!!!! dw. bye (:

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i was called a lobster about 78 times today. who would look at me and ask if i got sunburn? like honestly, you must be retarded. i want to go swimming. the whole wtk/ftsk shenanigans that happened in philly last night is so fucked up. i really can't, i hope everyone is okay. on a good note, tomorrow is ap. i'm going wif kiddy and laur(?), so excited. lalala love this week, okayz bye (:

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whaaaaaaaaaat a beautiful day. i've been laying outside since about 11. 3 hours, wow i suck. my sunburn on my legs just stops because i didn't spend enough time on my back. i wont get over it. i love this weather but not for school. summer, you need to come faster. this week is going to be amazing. tuesday is ap. 3OH!3, the maine, family force 5, a rocket to the moon and hit the lights. thursday is forever the sickest kids, the cab, we the kings and nevershoutnever. then saturday is bamboozle. i'm going to die of excitement, omg. okay i love life. bye (:

edit: i don't think i can move, i've never been so sunburned in my entire life. to me, it's not normal. i dunno how da hale i'm gunna sleep tonight. awsome :(

"1. when did we get this clock? 2. it stopped"

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i love my best friends. last night laur and i slept at kiddys house. we saw the knowing, it was interesting but kinda made me think that the worlds going to blow up one day. after going to bed around 1:30, early for us.... we woke up at 10:30 and started to get ready. around one we went to wendys and then adventureland!!!!! hot but amazing. my cheeeks are all red. when we got back we decided we still wanted to do something so we picked up nik and caylin and went to the docks in northport. so qt there and reminded me of the summer, i neeeeed it. i love kiddy and laur to death. oh and one week till gabriel eduardo saporta WTFFFFF##$^SAGLAJSGLSDJSK. bye (:

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i feel so gross when i'm sick. some how taking a really hot shower made me feel better. it's a beautiful day today, i love this weather. i'm in the process of getting ready and going to kiddys house soon with laur for the night, i miss them. haven't seen them in a week :( . i think we're going to the movies, aw. bamboozle is in 8 days, that means tears of joy are coming soon, yes! bye (:

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i really love a soar throats and loosing my voice, hot. we left off on a really bad end last night. i'm waiting for your apology. maybe not talking for a little while will help us out, it's what we need. i want tomorrow to come, best friends! forever the sickest kids and the cab is in a week from today, i'm gunna go crazy. aw. okay bye (:

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i took the time to try and help you out and it just went right through you. i've tried so hard and it's about time that i try to give up, again. what you want isn't going to happen if you don't do something with yourself. i don't know what to do with you anymore because clearly what i say doesn't help. just please don't come crying back to me. on top of this, i don't think i can last one more day in school. it's so stressful and the people in it make me go crazy. it really needs to end. i would love to move somewhere far away from here sometime soon, i'm begging. it's just so ridiculous. bye (:

edit: you're an asshole

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i found it hysterical when she told me you called me a bitch. sorry i was tired. don't talk about me to my best friend, obviously i'm going to find out. just keep my name out of your mouth, alright? i told you i'm sick of your shit. you act like you're five years old. do everyone else a favor and stop. anyway, i should stop coming home from school and taking a nap. it's ridiculous. the burn on my arm is starting to turn into a scar now, it's not even qt. uh wtf. goodbye (:

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rainy mondays, when you feel like you're going to rip your stomach out are always great, right? i woke up to a joyful present. i've felt sick all day. did my school have to pick the coldest day of the week to set itself on fire? i really do love standing outside in the freezing cold and rain, so fun. the highlight of my day is that i realized i'm seeing cobra in twelve days, i might start to cry. good tears. goodbye (:

edit: i miss everyone and everything from friday. my best friends, andrew, andy, spencer, elan, cory, robbie, nico, eric, gunz, the show feeling, everything. how is that possible? it wasn't even 4 days ago.

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sunday's suck, i'm tired and bored. hopefully this week goes by fast because i really need next week. have you realized we don't talk anymore? you let them take my spot in our friendship. they're fake and it's wearing out on you. i can't stand it and i hope you start to change back to who you were, that'd be great. bye (:

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this is going to be long. yesterday i only went to school to take a test that i didn't want to have to make up. the whole day i stared at the clock, counting down till 12:30. when the time came, my dad texted me telling me he's waiting for me in the car. i went down and singed myself out of school and ran to the car. i was seriously shaking the whole entire time going home. along with freaking out about how i'm gunna get ready in 1 hour. when we pulled in the drive way i jumped out of the car, ran inside and into the shower. i was ready by 1:40. we left the hour around 1:55 and picked up jill. then headed for the train. it felt like i was on the train for hours, the air conditioner didn't work and it was just hell. when we got to penn we went to the bathrooms and got something to drink then walked to the venue. my dad left and we got online. here comes the good part. we met these two girls, katie and jess. they told us that plain white t's canceled. omg yes. now it's a free show and danger radio is headling. i called cat and told her to call laura to seeif she can come, and she could. nico and spencer walked passsed everyone and said hi.(ahaha @ spencer and how you doin') jill and i were hungry so we went and got something for dinner. when we got back, i went around the corner and i saw andrew walking over to the garbage. so i went and said hi, we hugged and i gave him his drink, then everyone else came around, including eric bowley, ah. after talking to them for about five minutes they went inside and we got back to our spots. around 6:30 my best friends showed up, thank you. we got let in at 7 and ran to the stage. first row on the left. great. laura, jill and i went over to the merch to say hi to eric and get a picture, he's so qt. single file started. they're pretty good i guess. when they ended all the butterflies in my stomach were going crazy, i was tearing. when danger radio came out on stage we were all screaming like crazy. they opened with slow dance with a stranger. after that they sang your kind, used and abused, broken man, things, and you all belielive. somewhere in there they did a little bit of toxic and wonderwall asgsgk. then was alive for the first time, i was basically dying. my all time favorite song. they closed with kiss n' tell. i wish they played more, but it was great. we hung out with gunz and andy inside. andrew "had to put away his ears", so he was going to be outside. when we walked out we went around by where the vans are. i had andrew call alexa really fast because i know she loves him. he decided to walk around the corner where everyone was, then he got mobbed. we felt really bad so we all walked away, in that case.. i didn't take a picture with him, boo. we hung out with spencer, elan, gunz, robbie, cory and nico. as we we're walking we saw a huge mob of people by dr's van. andrew was playing acoustic. he sang my sweet carolina. it was amazing. eric came over and joined him, the scene aesthetic, yes! they sang love story and the man i am. my dad called and said to go meet him for the train. so we said bye to everyone and left. as we were gone laura calls and let me listen to beauty in the breakdown. i wish i was there to see it. that was the best night so far this year and i loved every second of it. andrew de torres, spencer phillps, andy brookins, elan wright, nico hartikainen, robbie, cory and eric bowley, i will love you till the day that i am dead.

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danger radio in the city, omg yes!!!!!! goodbyeeeeee (:

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don't tell me you miss me when you don't. who else do you miss? because i know i'm not the only one. you really are ridiculous. i know i'm staying strong with my plan and i think it's working. i had another great day. i have to study for my bio test i have tomorrow, it's the only reason i'm going to school. " if you don't pass, no shows, no bamboozle." that just scares me. it's what i need most. i should start trying a lot harder considering there is only a few weeks left. tomorrow night is going to be amazing and i really can't wait. bye (:

edit: i've said everything i wanted to and i think it hit you pretty hard, you're welcome.

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i had a hard time picking out a picture for today. there was plenty that could fit the situation but this one is perfect. today i was in a great mood. let me tell you something, don't lie to me. i'm human and i have feelings. you have no idea that i know any of this but i do and you're an asshole. i bet i'm not the only one who thinks that. it hurts to see all of this but i have to put up with it, right? i'm trying to let go of you and i know that it's hard and i've tried before and failed. but this happens everytime with you and it kills me. i hope you start to change and actually think about what you might be doing to someone else. trust me, i'm speaking for more than one person in your life right now. i had to do it and i hope you see this. just understand that everyone has feelings. how would you like if someone did the same exact thing you're doing, to you? you'd be upset and you'd hate it. it felt so good to get that out. i'm doing great today just knowing that i'm trying hard to get away. in two days i'm going to be the happiest i've been all year. i've needed a show for a while and it's finally almost here. o and thank you to my best friends who put up with me last night with all this crap, some people just don't care. goodbye (:

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first off, i hate school. these next 8 weeks need to go extremely fast. today seriously felt like ze longest day of my life. i couldn't stop looking at the clock. when i came home i passed out for about 3 hours and nao i wont be able to sleep later, most likley. awsome! i hate everyone. three fricken days holy crap, ah!!!!! ok bye (:

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today's the last day of spring break, kinda sucks. it was a good break and it didn't go by fast, thank god. all i did was relax today. hopefully this week goes by fast. i need friday to come now. i'm so excited omggg. i'm dying. okay goodbye (:

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aw happy easter. i woke up at 9:30, so early. had breakfast, opened cards and everything. i got 25$, yayay. after that amanda and i had an easter egg hunt, plus another 22$. i love easter, bahaha. i needa get ready for my aunts house with the family, bye (:

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aw one year ago today i saw ftsk, the rocket summer and atl for ze first time. i left school that day really excited and not knowing who would show up two hours later. the first and only time i've gotten a picture with gabriel eduardo saporta, so qt. anyways, rainy days always leave me to doing nothing. i saw the hannah montana movie last night. it was cute, i really liked it. i might be seeing it later with amanda. coloring easter eggs and stuff tonights, so fun. alright i need to go do my hair nao, bye (:

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lalalala, kiddy slept over last night. dat wuz fun. nao we're getting ready for ze day and stuff. i think i'm going to ze movies with lia, jill and melissa tonights. haven't seen them in so long. danger radio is in a week from today, omg. alrights, daz all. bye (:

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it' so nice out today. i love it. i basically just cleaned and went looking for a dress all day. yes i would wait till the day of a party to get a dress. it's so qt and i love it. kiddy's coming over soon to get ready. then heathers sweet sixteen at 8 till 12. kiddy's sleeping over, after ze party, aw best friend. everyday i realize that i like you more and more. it's a great feeling. bye (:

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so today was pretty good. last night i ended up not sleeping at sammy's and i came home around 11. i woke up early today and got ready. val amanda and i went to roosevelt field mall for a few hours. i found so many things but i only had five dollars, cool. we came home and then went out to dinner with kristin, that was fun. all the talking and what not. i don't know what i'm doing tonight. most likely nothing. first day all break i haven't seen my best friends... bye (:

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lalala, i'm at kiddy's house with tracy. what else is new? laur's coming back soon then we're going to tropical smoothie~ den later everyones going to sammys for manhunt, should be fun. alright, bye (:

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i met one of my best friends today a year ago today. ever since then i've realized how much of a better person i am and i've learned from many mistakes. this person will remain nameless for now but they'll always know that i love them to death. my day sucked. i cleaned like crazy just so i can get out of this house tonight and go to kiddys. hopefully doing something with cuarto. i love you, goodbye (:

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i hate myself for not going outside and doing anything today. i came home from cat's around 12 and since then i've really done nothing. last night was so much fun, screaming just to talk to someone right next to you can be really interesting. along with smacking the desk to adtr till it almost breaks. lmfao i love them, goodbye (:

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yayay. last night i slept over da kiddys house with laur. i love dem. "you fell asleep on lauras butt!!" LOL~ todays we went out and stuff. kiddy bought like 3 dresses at ze mall and i found the qtest dress evar, i loved it. den we went to fridays for dinner. mmmm. me and laur are sleeping over kiddys house again, wooh. k bye (:

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i'm not in the mood to write at all. it's finally spring break, bye (:

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i feel the need to complain. i really wish i was going to a day to remember tonight. my best franz are on their ways right now and i'm stuck at home. why didn't i get a ticket? i don't know. clearly i'm dumb. tomorrow is friday, last day before break. i need it, i need it, i need it. another sucky day. bye (:

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i have nothing to write anymore, i need to start using real pictures, i cut my bangs too short, i'm tired and i just want to sleep, i need spring break. today is a day of complaining... happy april, bye (:

edit: the new cobra song just made my day 30 times better.